i am not going to make any promises here. i feel like i am ready to get back into my old life. i miss being fit and i miss feeling strong. i am not the same person i was so i have to find my motivation from another place.
i am back working. i am doing some training. the weather is improving. i no longer have the black cloud of family problems hanging over me.
there are no more excuses. it is just up to me to do it for me.
it has been awhile so it is hard to know where to begin. well to start my dad passed away on 27 November 2016. but i am not ready to talk about that. i was made redundant at the end of August and i am still currently unemployed. i was struggling with consistent training so i transferred from the 140.6 at busselton to the new 70.3. dad passed away the week before so i didnt do that either. 2016 pretty much sucked for me and a lot of other people.
where do i start with work ? the level of incompetence and stupidity was on a massive scale. the lack of accountability and people putting their egos ahead of what is best. not being heard is very frustrating. and if you are going to go into business then have some understanding of how to manage it and make a decision. make the hard decisions. i think in the end this was just a business with jobs for the boys. and the boys sucked it dry and made no apologies for it. i stayed because at first it suited my ironman goals and training and i was getting well paid. then i stayed because i felt for the remaining owner who was shattered by the end and learned a very hard lesson. you also cross over to a point where you have to take into account what is due to you in redundancy. then you cant leave.
i havent seen or spoken to anyone from work since and i really dont want to. i took some time off after the event and then my sister came to visit and then dad fell ill. by the time we had the funeral it was close to xmas so i havent looked for work yet. the only thing i know is that i dont want to work for fuckwits again. i have a few plans for this year and i am going to make 2017 great. this might mean doing temp work and saving the dollars.
so while there were a few sad days spent in my pyjamas on the sofa i have also been very busy. my garden is looking well maintained again. i have painted the gutters and patio. i still have some white woodwork to go but it is minor. i painted the window trims and the front door. i pulled up the carpet in the front room donated a truck load of stuff to the good samaritans. i painted both bathrooms and the two spare rooms and my study. i finally fixed my bathroom taps and replaced the outdoor lights and fixed the indoor lights. the one in the bathroom has not worked in years and now i cant believe i left it so long. it feels like pure luxury.
training for anything has been hard. it has been very sporadic to say the least. when i look back at the five ironmans and 7 half ironmans i did over a five year period i really dont know how i did it. i feel like i have to rebuild my life and allow myself to enjoy training again. one day at a time.
i like motivational quotes and i recently read this article which i am going to remind myself of on a regular basis.
Things you should give up if you want to be successful.
Give up on the unhealthy lifestyle - no more magnums and less carbs.
Give up the short-term mindset - short term habits become long term goals
Give up on playing small - dont be afraid to fail and dont be afraid to succeed
Give up your excuses - own your life
Give up the fixed mindset - who you are today is not who you have to be tomorrow
Give up believing in the magic bullet - overnight success is a myth
Give up your perfectionism - dont lose opportunities waiting for things to be right
Give up multi-tasking - choose one thing and beat it into submission
Give up your need to control everything - detach from things you cannot control
Give up on saying yes to things that dont support your goals - he who would achieve much must sacrifice much
Give up the toxic people - dont settle (again) for just any job
Give up your need to be liked - you cant make everyone like you. i am a niche market.
Give up your dependency on social media and television - the trouble is, you think you have time. dont waste it.